Hi Serena,
Thanks for your sincere inquiry, The most important thing any of us can ‘do’ is surrender to, or accept, without reservation, the truth of What we really are, and then, consciously maintain that surrender until it becomes an ‘unconscious’ and uninterrupted way of life. Simply accept that you ARE eternal and infinite Awareness and not merely the form or forms that come and go in Awareness.
You don’t have to convince yourself of this awesome fact for it is the truth of What you are whether you’re conscious of it or not. Whenever you cease to be absorbed or lost in thought and the world of things, you will be aware of that Awareness that you already are. Always return to the awareness of your essential nature with gladness and a sense of gratitude, like the feeling of coming home — home to your true Self. Never berate yourself for getting lost in the inner or outer worlds of form (things that come and go), never scold or criticize yourself as being ‘unspiritual’, but simply notice that you are back ‘home’ again and enjoy the moment.
Because you are in no way separate from That which is the Source of all, in the macro dimension, you are already ‘doing’ everything everywhere and when this is seen or understood in the micro dimension, you can relax in the knowledge, that whatever happens, it is all unfolding exactly as it should — as your ultimate Self intends. In this sense, you surrender to the Will of God and welcome it however it appears.
Part of the unfolding of this higher purpose in all sentient beings is the feeling we can, and the impulse to, ‘decide’. From the moment we wake up each day, we make a steady stream of decisions, AS IF, the form was making those decisions instead of the Formless. This is (must be) the will or the intention of our formless Self. So, you see, our ‘power of choice’ is a wondrous reflection of the functioning of Source as it decides what happens in every atom of the universe.
The more awake or spiritually conscious we are, the more Consciousness or the divine intelligence will influence our decision-making in the relative world — the more the macro dimension will shine through, illuminate and guide our micro dimensional choices. We will probably find ourselves deciding to spend more time in quiet meditation, instead of filling all our hours with noise and activity. We may decide to hang out with those who are in the process of awakening rather than always with those who unconscious of their formless Self. We may decide to be in touch with awakened teachers or mentors, and read their books or listen to their CDs etc. We may decide to share the insights that have come to us with others who seem ready and eager to look into the truth of What they really are.
Serena, these are all things we can decide to ‘do’, and in the doing of them, we will most likely find that we are grounded more and more in calm two-dimensional living. As long as you identify primarily with the still spacious Awareness and not the content of that Awareness, you will find deepening enjoyment and delight on both these levels. It will seem like you ‘do’ the identifying, but actually it will simply be Awareness being aware of ItSelf (your infinite Self).
Perhaps this is all too much to take in at this time, so just relax and trust that you are being led by Consciousness and that It’s expression as ‘Serena’ is part of a great purpose that will bring unimaginable blessing to you and the rest of the manifest world.